I am not your enemy Do you want to get rid of your depression and are you open minded to that there is a God? Or you can come and take a look if you are just curious https://t.me/RenewYourselfs The devil and his demons are very good in manipulating our minds, if you don't train yourself you will going to think those thoughts are your own(since they are in your head). It took me 38 years and 20+ years of depression to realize that is what happens with thought. Jesus has beat the devil and you only have to declare that He did beat the devil to get him out of your life. Jesus saves!