Is this how normal feels??

Jun 1, 2021 5:34 PM

dreikommavierzehn

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Is this how normal feels??

Growing older with something like this unchecked and many depression episodes, I developed different strategies to handle daily life. Meditation and calming exercises became daily routines. I thought I became a very calm person overall. But only on the outside.

I always knew that this chaotic beebrain of mine isn't quite normal. But while the medication lasts I can see everything completely different. A mind free of constant chaotic thoughts, instead it's one coherent train of thought that I can switch willingly. The constant intrusion of negative thoughts that bombard me when I'm in public or making a mistake aren't there either.
I play the guitar and can continue after making a mistake (as opposed to being blocked by thoughts and emotions). I take the bus and don't get stressed and a strong heartbeat because I might miss it (Or miss the exit). I'm not constantly checking out every single person around me and it doesn't stress me to sit in a public place. I have written this post without getting lost in three other train of thoughts, two memories and while ignoring all the people around me. I cannot believe this.

This is a kind of inner calm I've only experienced a few times in my life. This is tranquility.

Sharing this with you fucks because there aren't any people in my life who could understand. And I know for a fact that there's a lot of people with the same or similar problem here.

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Well hot damn boys (and girls)!
That's a ton of response. I expected to lure out the aliens among us but didn't expect this massive influx of messages. It's well past my bed time and now off meds I found it curious to see how I feel really stressed out about all this these past two hours.
I'm sorry so many of you have to suffer so bad. Believe me, I know. I hope more people find the help they need.

I just wanted wanted to say: Thank you all for writing and telling your experiences! That's exactly what I hoped and it makes me quite happy to see so many similar people here.

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Love you, dude! That was my first experience on a prescribed amphetamine … “OMFG! I wonder if this is what normal feels like?!?”

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Just amazing right? I wouldn't want that all the time. It just opens a lot of new possibilities to organize things and be around people

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i was in my mid 20s and it was like the limitless pill for me. i always thought i was fine then got on a adhd medication, blew my mind.

5 years ago | Likes 14 Dislikes 1

still can't believe i did it without for so long. sure i did it but now it's way easier, way less stressed and angry.

5 years ago | Likes 5 Dislikes 0

Exactly like I wrote: I thought I was already super calm, but with the meds it was a whole different level.

5 years ago | Likes 4 Dislikes 0

yea it's night and day. i went 5 years with zero meds snd firmly against them, 180° about turn. best chpice i ever made, I'm a far better

5 years ago | Likes 3 Dislikes 0

man, boyfriend , employee and all round happier. even killed my depression 5 fucking stars

5 years ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

I'm very glad for you!

5 years ago | Likes 1 Dislikes 0

took me until I was 40 fucking years old

5 years ago | Likes 13 Dislikes 0

35 for me. Multiple Dr’s asked me “how… how do you function?” I didn’t make it passed pleasantries before an informal diagnosis was made.

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damn, but I mean appearently you found people that listened to you? That's great! My issue was, that I learned to be a chameleon

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How lead you to a diagnosis?

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Yeyyy welcome to the club!!! Congrats on domesticating your wild brain! Wee

5 years ago | Likes 9 Dislikes 0

?

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ADHD people basically evolved to be the human equivalent of Border Collies: we’re supposed to be constantly mentally and physically >

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>active, but our current environment doesn’t allow for that most of the time, so medication helps meet our brain’s need for >

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>a ridiculously high level of stimulation so we can function easier. Like a machine that only works at maximum output, and nothing less.

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Yeah and a tank that goes empty almost instantly, but only refills under special circumstances. I saw a talk today by George Cicci, he >

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talked about when we are in the activity but the brain starts blocking, what we often do is stop and have a hard time picking it up again >

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because the initial stimulus is gone. But right before we stop there's an inner struggle, a want to shift focus and supressing that will >

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Yeah microdose meth about it!

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I am afraid to try ADHD meds. I have learned to work with the bee brain. I'm afraid if I get on meds I'll not be as successful.

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There's actually many people that found a successful way of channeling their abilities. The most important factors for those are a good >

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social support system and some way of finishing education or getting into entrepeneurship. Jobs that require creativity, where you can work>

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in phases or where you have a good team that helps you stay on track are all good for adhd people. From writing to academia and management

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If you are curious about the meds: Methylphenidate only lasts for a couple of hours. After that beebrain comes back slowly. People like me >

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find help through that to migitate the anxiety and deal with stressful situations or start and keep doing mundane tasks (cleaning, work, >

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How did you manage to be able to do calming and m editation exercises ?

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Great question. I figured everyone would have the same problems as me and thought it be normal. It started at 16 when I couldn't sleep >

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anymore due to my chaos and started with a relaxation technique and very quiet ambient music (SomaFM). It works, because the brain is busy >

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trying to hear the almost silent music and the relaxation technique shifts the focus to the body. But it's a constant back and forth

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Later I got in touch with meditation teachers and tried their technique. It's pretty basic but what really made the difference was when they

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told me to accept whatever comes. So you relax and go to your thoughts, try to empty by not forcing anything and just accept whatever >

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Finding the right doctor, and going through medications until you find the right one can be a nightmare. Finally getting it right? Amazing.

5 years ago | Likes 101 Dislikes 0

It really is. I always wonder how different my life would be if I was diagnosed at a younger age

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I do too. But then again, there's no real awareness for adhd in my country. Knowing what I know now, the kids are being handled in a wrong >

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way and well, adults don't have it anyway. So university or job doesn't care about that anyway

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It's unbelievable. Medication against depression didn't help me at all few years back. But this is a gamechanger

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Lemme guess, adderall? I’ve been on it for 13 years. I was diagnosed at age 5 and was on Ritalin before switchin over to adderall in college

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It's Ritalin right now for me. Why did you switch? Did it help you in college managing workloads/stress?

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Ritalin was also the med that helped me!

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Concerta for me. Basically Ritalin but slow release. Huge game changer.

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That's good. Were you able to improve things with it?

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I took adderall for a while until we realized that it was making me very aggressive. Apparently they call it madderall

5 years ago | Likes 7 Dislikes 0

holy crap. Honestly in all these years (before meds), controlling bursts of anger was the hardest lesson

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Common side effect

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Does it works better than antidepressants? Any side effects? There always seem to be sexual side effects with any antidepressant meds.

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Side effects I cannot tell yet. Antidepressants vs. ADHD med however: The one I currently have supposedly doesn't affect depression much. >

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Although obviously if it helps overcoming problems in combination with therapy, depression can be overcome like this as well. I have taken >

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antidepressants before, without therapy and it didn't help me at all. Because my issues were clearly from ADD, so the extra energy from >

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the meds felt worthless while having the negative side effects on top of it. WIth my current doc I'm willing to try a combination of ADHD >

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meds and antidepressants however. Whatever he will recommend me

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How did you get the help / drugs? I may require this... becuase, fuck if I can string a thought along for more than 5 minutes at a time 1/?

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without swatting away another 30 that are trying to intercede... Maybe I need to try some of this to see if this is why I'm me...

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5 years ago (deleted Oct 21, 2024 11:40 PM) | Likes 0 Dislikes 0

But also look for a therapy. The meds won't make it go away, the syndrome is chronic. You need strategies to learn and live with it

5 years ago | Likes 1 Dislikes 0

SAME! SAME!!! I got on it at 30 and holy shit! Do I notice a difference.

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I opens a new door. :)

5 years ago | Likes 1 Dislikes 0

One side affect it has for me (35M) is i get super horny randomly. Ill get tons of work done and then run to go jerkoff in the bathroom

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Sounds like a disaster if combined with meds that inhibit orgasm

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My doctor said at my age I can't take them. I miss being attentive and skinny.

5 years ago | Likes 4 Dislikes 1

How old are you and why did your doctor say that at your age you can’t take them? Just curious what the doc said it would do.

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Because of blood pressure? How is being skinny related, if you don't mind me asking?

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I tried almost all of the adhd meds on the market when I was in my late teens to early twenties. My brain does not work well with them.

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what happened?

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Long story short, anxiety and depression on some, anger and irritability on others. The anxiety turned permanent even without meds.

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Thanks for the response!

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I can’t even fathom not having the chaotic train of thoughts that I have. It sounds like it would be nice, but impossible.

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Exactly what I thought when I read about it from others. Yet here we are :)

5 years ago | Likes 1 Dislikes 0

I’m on 2 meds and I’m still there. At least now I’m better able to recognize and manage. Though being in IT,ADHD can be a boon.

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How? All my programming jobs were basically "how many tickets can you do in x time" - that just sucks with adhd. :(

5 years ago | Likes 1 Dislikes 0

Now try having done meth in your past and get your psychiatrist to prescribe you literally anything. He won't prescribe me anti-anxiety>

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Have you talked to him about guanfacine or clonidine? They work for some people and aren't stimulating at all. I'm on a combination of 1/

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guanfacine and ritalin because I don't tolerate stimulants well. In a way it's better than ritalin because it doesn't wear off. 2/2

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That's an interesting combination. You don't want to wear it off at all? Can I ask why?

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Meds or meds to treat my adhd. I come to him with real life complaints and issues and get treated like I'm trying to con him out of drugs.>

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It's very frustrating. /endrant slash screaming into the void

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Fuck. Where are you from? I hope there are some organisations/groups that might be able to help you

5 years ago | Likes 2 Dislikes 0

There are other options for medication other then stimuli. And other doctors that can help you with that. Substance abuse / addiction is a /

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problem for many people with ADHD. I talk from experience too.

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Use the meds to adapt and learn.

5 years ago | Likes 3 Dislikes 0

Are you me? 33 year old here who started wellbutrin this year. Highly functioning ADD, but boy does the medication help. I sleep so well.

5 years ago | Likes 7 Dislikes 0

I'm 30 and just got diagnosed. Day 3 of Wellbutrin, I am so hoping I'll start getting proper sleep out of this!!

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Highly unfunctioning ADD here.? Reading the issues other people with high intelligence + ADD faced felt like reading my own life

5 years ago | Likes 7 Dislikes 0

I'm 36 and trying to get diagnosed and medicated. I've recently realized that I have ADHD inattentive type which is a burden as a programmer

5 years ago | Likes 6 Dislikes 0

It really is. I found it curious that people always told me programming is perfect for people with ADD ... like hell it is. Sure programming

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on your own in your own little hobby or when you can build your infrastructure to your desires is amazing. But actually working as a >

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software dev? That's hell. Because it's just the same monotonous crap all day every day. Yet another ticket for a button and if it takes >

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too long to be done, a surprise appointment with your supervisor suddenly pops up in the calendar.

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Just because it needs more brainpower doesn't make it magically well suited for ADHD. What does work however is working freelance.

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Seems to me the "hyperfocus" part would work great with programming. Sometimes I get so into my art I forget to eat.

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Sadly not like we would like to have it. I mean the hyperfocus drives us to one idea and then we follow that idea forever. Which often means

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reinventing the same thing over and over again. But you see, both these things are bad in 90% of programming jobs, where you have to get >

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stuff "just done" and nobody cares how you did it. It is absolutely great for anything related to art (like in your case). Anything that >

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profits from creativity, innovation, rethinking. Like music, math proofs, sometimes research work, writing, etc.

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It would be nice if I could hyperfocus on demand but it only happens occasionally while the lack of focus or attention happens all the time.

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If I may ask, what meds are you on OP?

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The first one my doc wanted to try is Ritalin/Medikinet, which is Methylphenidate. Will try a different one in a month

5 years ago | Likes 5 Dislikes 0

Caution on any amphetamine salts. Long term effects could include the same ones as meth. Psychosis, paranoia, etc.

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Well the thing with untreated adhd is that you basically have symptoms of psychosis, paranoia, anxiety, ... already and neither therapy nor>

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antidepressants can change that in some cases

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Like I mentioned the realization of being in public. I didn't even know that I had so much anxiety in me, even though therapists tried >

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I've been on concerta (slow release Ritalin) for over 12 years and will probably continue for life. Those aren't inevitable side effects

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Dunno why you’re being downvoted. It’s literally legal meth.

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Usually I take the joke but since you said "literally": It's not literally meth. It's something similar and as it often is with >

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biochemistry, despite the similarity it has different effects. Adderall is much closer to Meth. Ritalin has very little side effects

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16 years into this. Don't let them keep switching you. If you find one that works and you feel good on it, say so.

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Alright, thanks!

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I would be careful. I was on ADHD medication and it started off as a miracle for me. Over the course of ~6 years, I started to see the neg..

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negative effects, which were severe. I won't go into all of that, but just please, be open and objective to how your mind changes over time

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What negative effects?

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I've been on them for 16 years. It's depends on the person.

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hm, do you mean it affected your thinking when you were off meds? More intrusive thoughts? Difficulties concentrating with meds?

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It affected my thinking severely. I started going through manic periods and became addicted to pron. Watching it for several hours. For the

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longest time, it wasn't clear to me why I wasn't in control of that and it became a major personal battle. It wasn't until a few years in

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that I realized what was causing it and is a major reason for why I dropped it in the end. If you look up this topic on reddit, you will

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I diagnosed ADHD people for a while. Half of the patients were 40+ getting diagnosed for their first time. Life changing

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I'm 49, just dxed, and have asked psychiatrists and therapists for 12 years if I might have it. Until last year every single one said no.

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There were a lot of missed diagnoses when we were kids, before "ADD with inattention" vs "ADD with hyperactivity" was a thing, and dx was >

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< largely outcome-based (which it kind of still is, but you have to suffer a LOT as an adult before a dx in some cases). If you're >

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< compensating hard enough as a kid and have your parents keeping you on track, hey you must not have ADD!

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The horrible thing is that it also affects social situations so much, which often have to be endured

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Inattentive is the big thing. Works ok if you are smart and in school. Doesn't work for shit in life.

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Can absolutely confirm. Did great in school til adolescence, and as an adult, can't keep a job to save my life "inconsistent results"

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Holy shit, "inconsistent results" should be a banner slogan for adhd people

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It's unbelievable. And I'm still met with docs that go "Adults don't have problems with ADHD"

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Moving as an adult with ADHD is very hard. Many believe you are "fixed" and won't continue your prescription

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It's like ADHD expires when you hit 18, oh and lose your CHIP, very convenient~

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The first doc I saw about it said "you don't develop ADHD post partum" despite me describing issues since I was a kid.

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Second doc read the first doc's notes and said he agreed with all of them before we even spoke for the first time, then called me a liar.

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Holy shit I'm sorry. I had the exact experiences with the first therapists/doctors I met (We didn't talk about ADHD back then though).

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What I'm saying is: Keep trying. Maybe find a therapist that supports you or an organisation near you that could help you.

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I was diagnosed with ADHD as a child and when I turned 18 decided I didn’t need it anymore. Big mistake. No doctor would represcribe me 1/2

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With it because they said it was just anxiety. My grades dropped and I couldn’t even hold a conversation with anyone. 2/3

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This caused it hard to make and keep friends as I just avoided conversations as much as I could. I found myself alone and no one knew why3/4

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Finally at 38 and after having a long time doctor that knew I felt off decided to trust in me when I told him my story and my previous 4/5

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Diagnosis as a child. He prescribed adderall to me. Since then my relationships have improved and I have found purpose in my life. Thx doc

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Yeah I'm 34 and tried my kids vyvanse the other day. It's wild what a change it makes. Makes me want to get my own prescription lol

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I am also tempted to do this, as I'm fairly certain I have the same brain he does.

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Just talk to a psychologist experienced with adhd some time. It's likely he will find out for sure

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I get by without medication but it would be nice to be able to function without umpteen trains of thought going on. It would also be nice to

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Be able to stick to a hobby or be able to read through a long article without getting bored and forgetting about it lol

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oh hell yeah. I stopped reading non-scientific material years ago because of this. Even that was too much at times and it was just a few >

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months ago that I finally succeeded to manage the stress of reading a few articles. I can stick to hobbies though, as long as I keep them >

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free of pressure (playing guitar just for myself; programming as a hobby instead as a job). What haven't you gotten a prescription yet?

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I actually don't mind the trains of thought. They can be very useful for many things. But the negative thought trains? Oof...

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I've got other stuff from it being untreated for so long so I still struggle even with it but those close to me can tell when it's 1/

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in effect. I'm more clear-headed. I don't get defensive and angry. I can actually do things. I hate that I'm stuck with this but glad 2/

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it works the way it does.

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That is exactly the problem I (and many others) face. When getting help so late in life, a lot of shit has accumulated. Dealing with that >

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takes time, therapy and good support. It sounds like you're on a good path

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Can confirm it works. HOWEVER... you'll find your body needs more as it becomes immune to that dose. You either have to go up on your >>>>

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daily dose, which sucks, or get off ADHD med for around 5 days, which also sucks, for it to clear out of your body. Then go back on.

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Thanks for that info. That is actually relief for me. Because I planned to have breaks from the start. I like the positives of my brain :)

5 years ago | Likes 1 Dislikes 0

I hear a lot about people who take it only on weekdays.

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That's kind of my plan. To only take it for when I need to get some stuff done or my brain fog starts

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I've been on the same dose for at least 6 years now. Yes, taking breaks *can* help but only if you can function (I can't)

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I'm not functioning either - can't handle stress. How is it for you?

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A possible effect, but not guaranteed. I've been on the danger 15mg dose for 15 years.

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Beware, the medicine comes with a toll. Used Adderall for about 10 years. It definitely does shit to your brain long-term.

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If you hyper focus on tasks that aren't high priority, welcome to the world of ADD/ADHD people every single second.

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For people seeking help such a message can be very confusing. If you could go back in time, would you change it?

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Can you tell in what way?

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I have been medicated since I was 10, I’m now almost 27, and have also added anti depressants and anti anxiety medication, as it really /1

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Can mess with the chemicals in your brain, I also tend to lose a lot of weight in it because I don’t eat, then when I don’t take it /2

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Not questioning, but are you aware that 2/3 of people with ADHD also have 1 or more other medical conditions, like depression, OCD, anxiety?

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Oh 100 percent, I got all the goods, my Brian is like a psychiatrists dream

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I eat everything in sight like my body is trying to make up for it. I will also sometimes hyper focus on tasks that aren’t high priority /3

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This is odd. The goal of adhd medication is stop the hyper focus and allow shifting it on mundane tasks. Why is it for you that way?

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It definetly helps achieve the overall goal, but be aware of the symptoms and how to combat them, I waited 16 years before I finally spoke/4

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It increases my overall stress level, muscle clenching, etc. But I can't fucking adult without some stims. So I cycle with workload demand

5 years ago | Likes 3 Dislikes 0

That's odd, it's supposed to reduce your stress not increase it. What does your doc say about that?

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Adderall can mess with your dopamine levels if abused, but adhd meds can also help you discover other disorders. Use therapy first. Be happy

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Therapist came first. Too much depression for happiness. Antidepressiva didn't change that - first dose of ADHD med did.

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Yup, been on Dexedrine since I was 13, now 41. I am literally unable able to function without it. My dosage required is slowly killing me.

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For people seeking help such a message can be very confusing. If you could go back in time, would you change it?

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Thanks for the great question!

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Nope. Its my cautionary tale. You can become physically dependent on some ADHD meds, amphetamine-based ones you can develop a tolerance for.

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Thanks for sharing your story!

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I understand what you say and I feel it's good to share experiences. Though people apparently often take things they read on the internet /

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far too literally or without nuances and it's good to be aware of that I think, as commenter and as reader. Opinions and experiences /

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@OP what medicine were your prescribed? I need to change my current medicine

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Currently Ritalin (Methylphenidate). Which one did you take and why are you changing?

5 years ago | Likes 6 Dislikes 0

Personally I prefer concerta it's ritalin but it gradually released over time instead of one large dose

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ah yes makes sense. My doc mentioned that for the future

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You can ask for... and usually receive... slow release generic Ritalin. In fact Drs and pharms prefer it due to lower street value.

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Ritalin was better for me than concerta minus the fact it didn't last long enough. Wait to see before changing! I wish Ritalin worked longer

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Yeah I guess ~6 hours would be enough for me

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Adderall, I've been on it for 10+ years, it stopped being as effective then I was put on Strattera, atomoxetine, for 2 years & 1/2

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That hasn't worked at all I feel no different I wanted to give it a chance hence the 2 years & get to the full dose but it doesnt work so2/3

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I'm looking for a new medication to try next. 3/3

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Do you know why it stopped being effective?

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I’m on both Adderall and Stratera. Both max dosage. I was advised to “vacation” from Addy when possible. Seems to help

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I think I might need help with ADHD then.

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You can try blow before you get Adderall

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I always knew I get addicted to shit way too easily. I politely decline any opportunity for that and wouldn't recommend anyone to try it >

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over medication. The effect is obviously much stronger with devasting effects on the biochemistry

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I keep thinking the same. At least ask my doctor about it.

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What is the drug?

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Do it! I got it at 36 and it changed everything.

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So many of us! :)

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I got it like OP, but some days are better than others.

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Yeah hearing OP list their previous anxieties and thinking, "Oh shit dat me"... Welp

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that's not even half of it ...

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Make a second more detailed post? These are all me and I never put together how bad it is with depression combo

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I could try. The hard part about this is to keep it short enough for reading ... maybe a series .. what age span is relevant to you?

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placing a bookmark on your post to remember doing it

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I've been thinking about it more and more lately and I'm kind of afraid to approach it

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Why are you afraid of it?

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Giving it a name. Like all things, it then becomes real, and, everything, everyone, All youve blamed, distanced from, was never the reason.

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These things don't have to be exclusive. They are most likely all connected. I was afraid to give it a name, because I did so before and >

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it was false. Which was quite the letdown to say the least. But now that everything confirms it, it's liberating. It brings hope

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It is a pretty potent drug and prescription drugs have destroyed a lot of lives, so some apprehension is warranted.

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Yes of course. Even though I'm a cautious/responsible person I still want accompanied therapy and a supervising doc because of that

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All my life I heard it's "overdiagnosed", like every second problematic child. But I realise that the number of adults struggling with ADHD>

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its been beating my ass so hard at work that im at the point of going to the doctor.

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Please do. I've quit and lost so many jobs because of it.

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I’m a 55 yr old woman and just diagnosed. Back in the 80’s, only boys had ADD or ADHD. Figuring out meds now.

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I'm glad! Others pointed out that we need to keep an eye on blood pressure

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It IS overdiagnosed because is often MISdiagnosed or flat used for abuse. More specifically with adults & Adderall. Ritalin less problematic

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It obviously is very useful and necessary for some adults. I just see way too much being used to counteract narcotic side effects.

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Ah yes that's true. I was thinking more about something specific to where I grew up. People made it seem as if every other kid in the 90s >

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in Austria, that was just a little bit odd or active got diagnosed with it. Bad schools of your school system would just place them in a >

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I think I need help. N u r the reason im gonna keep my apt next month thank u

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I read this as Apartment. Like 8 times.was like why.. Am I not getting this lol

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Never put off health related appointments - good luck!

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is way too high and for the most part ignored by society. There's much more visibility for it in the US than EU though.

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You just went to the doctor and told them how you feel or what? Was it a long process? I'm 27 and you just described my life.

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ooooof ... that's a long story. When I was already in my late 20s, I had yet another heavy depression episode but for the first time found >

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help. It seems you need to get damaged badly enough before people take you seriously. At this point I had so many problems, that most people

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I'm 2 years into the process. Still no diagnosis. Would love to hear the change on meds for motivation. Pm me if you can share.

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No diagnosis? What process then? Therapy?

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What is the medication they gave you?

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The first one my doc wanted to try is Ritalin/Medikinet, which is Methylphenidate. Will try a different one in a month

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I'm on Straterra which isn't really a stimulant, it helps but I'm always worrying that I should try something else that could work better...

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How? I need it at 38. Always did. But I’m “just depressed”.

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Try getting diagnosed at a diagnostic psychiatrist experienced with ADHD in adults

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Short but explaines most of the issues I've had with ADHD https://youtu.be/JowPOqRmxNs

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He truly brings it perfectly to a point. Thanks for the link!

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By now I've spent a couple of hours listening his lectures/interviews and reading up on some materials. That man is a hero - thanks!

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I read that it Manifest different and women than it does men. And often people get missed diagnosed with depression and anxiety.

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Exactly whay happenes to my friend. Feventually diagnosed a year ago, his life got so much better. But god his medicine is strong. Tried onc

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If you are suspecting you have ADHD I strongly suggest u get evaluated, it literally has changed my life and how I viewed myself

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It does! 32 diagnosed 3 months ago! I was day dreamer, clumsy, "unfeminine", forgetful, chaotic, impulsive child.

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And now everything starts to make sense, I'm still trying out the med BUT you can tell there's something different

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You could describe me like that too though, I'm male. :)

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47 year old here. I'm facing a real conundrum. Stimulant based medications aren't the best thing to be on after 50, but without the meds my

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@FeralGhoulash

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I'm 48, and on half methylphenidate, half guanfacine. I'm still at low doses of both but already seeing improvement. Might be worth checking

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Thanks man I'll check it out

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There are options other than stimulants. I can’t take them due to heart problems and my doctor suggested a few other but I haven’t tried yet

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Anything vaguely like a stimulant provokes my insomnia. I need something but not anything that keeps me from sleeping.

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Strattera is a non-stimulant ADHD med. That's what I take, because stimulants make me anxious.

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Thanks! I hope it works well for you.

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Consider wellbutrin instead of adderall. It's a dopamine promoter that is less of a stimulant AND IT REALLY WORKED for me.

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I'm 44 and can't handle stimuli. I'm on Nortriptyline and it works lots better for me. It's one of the top choices for my psychiatrist /

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especially when ADHD/depression combination.

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Thanks for the recommendation, will ask mine what he thinks about it

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Bupoprion, aka Wellbutrin, is the one I have for non stimulant. Helps with focus, depression, and anxiety.

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Life falls apart. I'd rather knowingly shorten my lifespan than live a life of chaos, disorder, and horrible internal monologues

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I kind of like the beebrain and the chaos. Sometimes it's inspiration (in math&programming or with music). But I feel the horrible internal>

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monologues. Countless hours tortured by my thoughts. And the hail of negative thoughts the can attack suddenly in daily life. I didn't know>

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it came from ADHD and didn't expect it to go away with the medication

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Have you discussed non-stimulant options with your MD? There have been some real advances in ADHD meds over the last few years

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Strattera is a non stim med that I've heard is effective, the one con is it can take a month to build up in your system enough to work.

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My doc mentioned it but said it has too many side effects ?

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I haven't read about any of that yet. Are you sure about the negative effects? Appearently it doesn't affect people with ADHD this way

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Taking speed everyday is never going to be good for your cardiovascular system

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For people without adhd, but for people with its weird like overcharging your battery to make it run better but it works

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Still raised my heart rate and metabolism. Went off it a few years ago and gained almost 60 lbs.

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It increases your blood pressure and heart rate

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I take it with blood pressure medication and my BP stays normal.

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Alright, will ask my docs about it - thanks

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Take a closer look at that btw. The studies I've been looking at say while there is a presumption that they do, in actual testing they/

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don't seem to have much of an effect in healthy people.

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59 here. on Adderall for 14 years now and there's no going back. i refuse to live like that again.

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53, with an artificial heart valve. already talked it over with my doctors, who have seen the changes in me

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#notgoingback

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So you take it without breaks in your day/week?

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no breaks. if i miss a day I'm an anxious muddled mess. i don't take it so i can work, i take it so i can be calm, at peace all the time.

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I see .. have you ever been in therapy? Did that change anything?

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Dosage? I’ve been on it since 25 (am 33) and it skyrocketed my career.

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It's good to hear someone starting this at my age. I'm 49, just started, and feeling really, really late out of the gate and lost.

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i spent 45 years not understanding why i couldn't function like other people. the last 14 have been like a rebirth. the past is done, but

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you now have a new chance to take control. get used to the changes with your meds, and the next few years can be amazing.

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That’s why I drink a pot of coffee a day...

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strangely enough, i can't have *any* caffeine or I'll be awake all night. Adderall, though, makes me sleep like a baby.

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