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Sorry if seems like a shitpost but I cant take it anymore. My girlfriend just gave me the " i dont feel the same about you anymore " speach. This hit me really hard, seeing that i still love her and that i poured everything i could into the relationship. I did everything, i put my family and friends on hold for her, i was there when she was low, i cooked for her almost everyday, i told her how beautiful she was and how much she ment to me daily, i went and supported her for everything she did, i tried getting better for her becuase my depression and anxiety was effecting her, i spent alot of time with her family so they would like me, i forgave her when she cheated on me, i boosted her confidence, i steped out of my comfort zone a lot for her, i suppressed my anxiety for her, i ingored my depression for her, i tried to make her feel special because she was the most important thing to me. I love her i really really do with everything in body i love her, and hearing her say that was just the breaking point. I feel fucking worthless and truly alone. I dont care if i live or die anymore, i wish i would just die in a car accident so it would be a little more easy on family rather than killing myself. I was already unstable before all of this and i dont know what to do. She was my motivation to get better and to live, with out her i dont know what to live for. I tried talking with my friends but they are just like " ok bro calm down it's just a chick " and my when i told my family that i might be contemplating suicide they lost their shit and got angry at me saying not to ever say that again. I tried to get an appiontment with a psychiatrist but they said they have a spot open in two months even though i need it right now. I cant talk to my councilors because they will just think I'll kill myslef in the bathroom or something and dont generally care about me. Im trying here i really am trying but I'm running out of motivation to do anything anymore because whats the point, if i die no one would really care. Just like those two kids who committed suicide this year at my school, they remembered them for a week and forgot about them.
Sorry if it all didnt make sense im just kind of rambling.I just need some good words right now, i dont care if you upvote or downvote i just need someone to say its going to be ok.
Thank you
TehBox0rz
You are so valuable— your family doesn’t want you to talk about suicide because it scares them too much. Anger masks fear.
ivysfriends2
U said it all,she u said she cheated on you. It's def. her,she needed to sow her wild oats. You find ya self a gal more emotionally mature .
magnvsm
stay strong
ivysfriends2
Listen Baby,Imgur cares if u live..n fuk that bitch..U gon find a better girl..
gfsm
Thank you, and i hope so to. I think i stayed with her because i thought i couldnt do any better
TehBox0rz
You are worth more than this. It gets better. Don’t rob the world of your light - we need more people like you.
photosoflabels
You’re more precious than you realize. Get a lot of sleep. Cry. Take some daytime walks. Relax. Your life 20 years from now wants you alive.
gfsm
Thank you so much, hearing that im actually worth something helps alot. Thank you again, i cant express my gratitude to this community
PenguinByte
It's going to be okay, even if it doesn't seem like it right now. Please reach out to a helpline if you need to. We want you here.
gfsm
Thank you so much, i really cant express how good it feels to hear that someone actully wants cares if i live
ValleytotheSea
You sound like a great guy. You did a lot of things for her and now you need to do some things for yourself. This will pass. I promise.
gfsm
Thank you, hearing these comments actually give me alot of hope.
maclaglen
This sounds like a good thing. You poured your heart and soul into her and she didn't reciprocate. Learn to make yourself happy and you'll1/
maclaglen
ultimately feel better. I know it's hard and it sucks, but you CAN do this.
gfsm
Thank you so much i really cant tell you how much this means to me
maclaglen