Issue w my last friendship...

So long story short I was put in rehab a while back a few years ago and that put a strain on my best friend and our friendship and he decided to break off for a while. I found this hard to take because I was there for him during his divorce. I found out through my treatment that friendships are not you give and you receive equally so as able to forgive him for that. I realize that perhaps I have been selfish in ways that I have not realized I may not still realize them.

Over the last year or so, like two, he has reached out in a way where it's not going to be a hangout friendship anymore but we can play video games online over headset. I am alright with that as a starts or just as it is if that's what it's going to be.

however we have strange discussions about politics were finding we're disagreeing. we are learning more about her each other's personalities and I am finding she is a bit more racists and anti-social because he has to deal with people all the time and he can't stand it. I enjoy being around people and socializing and people try to avoid me.

The last time we conversed we had a great night playing risk online and we spent a good two hours playing online and conversing. We thought it'd be good to end the night there and maybe play again the next night. We then did start playing again the next night and for some reason as he tends to do with me when I make referential humor like I reference movies or TV shows a lot he'll tell me to stop doing that because it's annoying. That's my sense of humor I just can't help it. I can't make jokes on my own out of the blue. However that night I was not making referential humor and I don't believe I was making them the night before. Something triggered him where he was just making referential humor at me in spite of me and just staring into me and like that's it I'm done and I closed out of the session left the game.

I don't know what happened where he decided to tear into me that night out of the blue. I know he is not an imgurian so he won't see this. I just needed to vent.