I do not know what to do

Previous recap: Work has shorted me cash, stalker at work, harassment at work, lack of understanding from family, prescriptions not working, need insurance at all for pills, anxiety at all time high, ADHD worse than ever. The list goes on.

I spoke with a friend who had been through this and needed the disability pay before. The state I am in not only handles it poorly but pays very little. The SSI/SSID also pays out so little it isn't enough to meet bare requirements for living let alone getting help. Facts online seem to bolster what he said.

I feel more hopeless than ever now. My choices are find another job but all the problems come with and I do not have money to move either. (Despite the above the job is only one piece of this puzzle) It will only remove a couple. Just stick out the job and keep my head down with stomaching the mental issues as I have for decades as it keeps getting worse and worse. Last try to attempt disability and be unable to afford anything. So lose medications, my therapist, just all of it.

Why does America hate us so much? I didn't ask for these issues. I didn't want to be this way.