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I've done it too many times and I'm not proud of it. I just feel safe and protected being looked after. I did it again last night on purpose but this time it was to self harm and not party. It was someone I only really know a little bit too but I knew he would help. He cleaned up my messes and drove me home. I feel like an asshole. Then my roommates had to nurse me yet again. I'm sure they're getting fed up. When I move into a solo apartment I'll at least have to take care of myself and not have to bother them anymore.
theschnubbeldidupp
This is a behaviour that is as toxic to yourself as to your enviroment. Please take this serious and seek out a therapist - you need help!
thefirstbarbarian
Sounds like you need a safe place to be vulnerable. Therapy is a much healthier option.
SnottorCat
You're fucked up, get help before you don't have more babysitters around.
CouldYouPleaseRatherNot
Sounds like the lyrics to a pop song.
MinorityRetort
Get some non-religious professional therapy. You *are* worth it, even if you feel guilty about your recent choices. You deserve happiness.
Arcygenical
Holy yikes dude. I'd stay away from CNS depressants for a long time, were I you. You're one slip up away from death.
fsharpminor3s
congrats on admitting to being a selfish asshole.
TRexine
Thanks? I'm not perfect but I'm working on it :/
Siptro
You should move into a rehab or mental help facility next. Not an apartment
DarthAsshat
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Avidinha
Dumbass
Deleteded
Baltzdelirium
What's K? Ketamine?
TRexine
Mhm. I knew it was a toxic combination.
Baltzdelirium
You okay dude?
TRexine
Not really at the moment. I'm still trying to find the med combo to get me stable.
Baltzdelirium
Damn. I mean tbh songs like you need a coping mechanism for when you have these thoughts. You seeing a professional?
TRexine
Yeah, I had to cut it to bi-weekly meetings though cause of $ but I'm hitting my out of pocket limit soon thankfully.