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I'm not being able to handle this... I have zero friends near me. He was my bestest friend and a little girl's first love.
Half of me died yesterday and I already told my mom, when her turn comes, I'll be ending myself because I cannot live without my best friends. I just simply can't.
I live my life for my parents. and without them I'm literally alone in the world.
I'm just looking for some people to hold me virtually right now even though what I really need is someone with me and my mom.
Sorry for the sudden turn. I love you all.
Bombaso
Sorry for your loss. Sending you a hug
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Sakera
SubtleOrc
Your father's number one hope for you would be to remember him but move forwards to happiness.
PJamz
I'm trying... mainly for my mom because now she needs me even more than ever before.
1doberman
Hang in there.
PJamz
I'm trying... I really am
UhSadHJ84
Hugs for my internet homie
PJamz
thank you homie <3
drakcor
That's really rough, and you're strong for being open about this. It's ok to be sad, it's ok to not feel like you're there or that part of you is gone. If you need to vent please feel free to do so but only if you're comfortable doing that!
PJamz
thank you fren... truly
fuehrSleepVoter
There are many of us that hold the trauma of losing our parents tighter than others. I don't know how some persons float along and others of us crumble. You aren't alone. You may find people along the way that will be more special than others to assist you along the way. I always wondered how the rest of the world continued when mine was so dark after such a loss. It's all a process. I wish for you the ability to grieve and be tough as nails at the same time.
PJamz
thank you cutie
ThrashAndChemistry
I'm terribly sorry for your loss. I know it's hard.
As for ending it, I'm sure that's not what they would want for you.
PJamz
I know it isnt but I did tell them that when their time comes, I will be dead inside. They are literally everything to me.
BlackHoleSon01
Your Dad would want you to stay strong.
PJamz
I know cutie... I know... :'<
Stonemarter
I lived too for my parents, somehow i never got around to start my own family. After they were gone, i thought, what now? I try to make other people happy and help them in life. Find a hobby, preferred with a club nearby. It does help. Educate kids to have healthy relations with each other. Pass on your knowledge of things to others. Your life does not end with your parents, it takes a path further, they did that before you, when their parents died... It is a loss, and a release from them, scary
PJamz
When my grandparents passed, on both sides, both my mom and dad were together already so, they already had each other back then... I witnessed the passing of my grandparens on my mom's side as well and it was like seeing my second set of parents go... We were incredibly close as well.
While they had eachother, I have no one to be with both my mom and I and be here for both my mom and I either.
MyDogTige
My dad died in October of 24 and I promise it will get better. Live and provide and teach your children about him and about death and it will help. Sending you my greatest condolences.
PJamz
That's the thing fren... I dont have a boyfriend/partner/boyfriend nor kids. I've been single since my previous boyfriend ended his life.
I still truly appreciate your words. They do mean the world to me.
MyDogTige
I'm terribly sorry, I misunderstood what you meant by "little girl's first love." I thought you meant a grandchild, though I shouldn't have. Sending you the biggest and bestest hugs I can.
PJamz
thank you so much fren. I truly do. Sending you a hug in return. ily