Hardly a confession, but the anxiety is getting to me

Hardly a confession, but the anxiety is getting to me

Over the last year I've been getting more lethargic and gaining weight, and up until about 8 weeks ago I just attributed that up to sheer laziness and decided to get back to working out. The laziness persisted. My fiance had a medical issue of her own and her new doctors gave her pills to help her sleep and combat some of the side effects of her other medication.

I never slept great (hour or so to fall asleep and waking up once or twice a night) and I was envious to the quality of the sleep she was getting, so rather than take some of her pills I decided to go to the doctor over my lethargy. They recommend a sleep study before prescribing any sedatives since i'm overweight and have an overbite. I say thats fine, but our in-network sleep study doctor has a waiting list of 8 weeks. I would also be diagnosed with Low testosterone with my followup appointment for that being in December.

Knowing that I'm not sleeping well is wearing me down, more and more each day, no non-lethal amount of caffeine can keep me from nodding once, twice, now three times a day at work. I must be a hypochondriac because my mother made an offhanded comment that I shouldn't be driving because she thinks I could fall asleep at the wheel, and now I'm scared that I will.

I was already tired all the time, but now i'm TIRED, and if this sleep study finds nothing then I am straight FiretrUCKED