Day 26 Of Posting Quokkas Everyday To Make Y'all Smile

I'm tired and scared ngl also im not exactly doing too good mentally or emotionally, and physically its slowly getting worse as well. Im staying up all night, maybe finally going to bed at 4-5 am, waking up at 9-10 am, doing nothing all day but rotting in bed and taking a nap at 2-5 pm and waking up at dinner, eating, going back to bed and doing it all over again. I can't wait until school starts in 7 days to get a new routine and finally see other people who aren't my mama, dad, stepdad, or cousins or just my family in general. My closest friends live in Dallas, I live in Houston, and half of them barely talk to me anymore. I keep wanting to get out and go explore outside and go somewhere. Maybe I'll ask my mama if we can do something today after work, like maybe go to the gym at least. But like every other day, she'll probably be too tired afterwards to do anything. Im getting worse and getting more tired and scared and I just want to leave, and it's not getting any better. I'm just counting down the days until I start high school, and Im just hoping I don't do anything stupid in that time. I'm posting this quokka and my garlic bread early today so I don't have to do it later today and risk forgetting it. Anyhonk, back to distracting myself with media by listening to music and attempting to contact any friends I can, hopefully any are awake. Quokaaaaa