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I wake every morning with th3se thoughts, or something similar. I look in the mirror and see this ugly girl. I wonder why I can't be pretty like her. Enticing like her. My smile isn't beautiful and big like her. It doesn't make you weak in the knees when you see mine. The "her" I compare myself to everyday is my girlfriend's "ex-wife". They're going through a divorce, but lately they've been talking again and prolonging submitting the papers to get everything started. My girlfriend still loves her and I'm just standing here like chopped liver wondering what I did wrong in life to deserve this. I'm a wreck. I don't want to be here anymore. Suicide is on my mind a whole lot more than I wish it was. I'm not here for upvotes or anything. I just needed people to talk to.
Gr00ver
It took some time for me in something similar to this, that you need to get out of that relationship. PM me when you need someone to talk.
terribleinternetpunsfirstborn
Try talking to your gf. If you're having problems you need to tell her
Glamtrash504
It always ends up me being the bad guy or th8ngs getting worse. I'm scared of confrontation.
seethe42
Take it as a life lesson. That's what you get for getting involved with a married person. You are either the rebound or they will go back.
Glamtrash504
This has been my best friend for 10 years.
seethe42
Doesn't matter. Relationships after a breakup are almost universally transitional to get over the ex and work on issues.
MistakeKin
I can't imagine your girlfriend suddenly loved her ex again. Which means you knew or were blissfully unaware. Either way its not fair of
MistakeKin
Her to get into another relationship not knowing fully what she wants. If she wanted you she should not be looking back. You deserve better
MistakeKin
Im available to talk. Just PM me. It'll be therapeutic for both of us.