I have nothing left

I lost the job I loved, because my Trumper boss didn't like that I'm genderfluid. There are no other jobs I can do in my area, being disabled. My fiance has applied to every job he's seen for the past 4 months, gotten one interview that wasn't even in person, and didn't get the job. There haven't even been any new job listings in 2-3 weeks. Places aren't even hiring seasonal around here. So, we've been having to live off my disability and food stamps only. It's getting cold again, and we're still living in the same shitty camper. So, soon it's going to get to the point of choosing between heat and other necessities, like my meds. I've been trying to sell my old furniture and stuff out of storage, so I can buy a car, so that I can try to DoorDash or something to earn money, but no luck so far. I don't know how I'd afford the insurance anyway.

I had a horrible disease called Leptospirosis around the end of September to mid-October that caused several hospital stays. It drained our savings and made me miss a surgery that insurance now refuses to cover without an entire new round of tests (which they also won't cover), even though it's not like genetics can change.

I can't fight anymore, but I can't rest, either. I haven't had a good night's sleep in months. The only thing we've been able to do is pick up odd jobs to keep up with the overdraft fees. There is nothing for us here, but we have no way out. Even our simple goal of owning our own camper instead of living in this 42 year-old barely insulated one that his parents are letting us rent for cheap is so far out of reach now that I feel stupid for ever believing it could happen. We're certainly never going to be able to afford a house or to adopt children.

There's nothing for us in the future.

Edit: @GBMaker told me I should make a Ko-fi, so I did. If you decide to donate, I draw and make crafts if you'd like something in return. https://ko-fi.com/pajamastripes

Thanks to everyone for the kind words. Still feeling REALLY depressed, but knowing someone gives a damn is doing something.

Update. My best friend, my pet rat Peep died. We found him a bit ago. He seems to have went in his sleep. He wasn't sick. He was just old. It still hurts so much, though. He's been my shining light, and now he's gone. I knew he had to go sometime, but why now? What the fuck does God have against us?!!!!