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Yeah, all of these. Just... Don't.
Since discovering 2 years ago that I'm autistic the best thing has been finding that there are actual names for things I've always struggled with! This is Auditory Processing Disorder and is An Actual Thing (I always thought I was just a bit stupid).
Please forget all of your stereotypes. They're wrong.
I had someone on here tell me that I must be "high functioning" because I could clearly advocate for myself.
I mean, yeah. When I can read your comment, close the app, think about your comment, probably reopen the app and re-read it multiple times, think carefully about what I want to say, type it out, re-read your comment and my comment, edit what I said, and then hit send.
Talk to me in person (especially in a confrontational manner) and I can't string two words together. And will probably cry.
Yes we fucking are!
In conversations - particularly group conversations - I either interrupt a lot ("I have something to say that is relevant and it's really exciting and I must say it NOW!!!) or I can't find the right point to join in so I end up saying nothing.
I read a book (Odd Girl Out) about a woman who discovered she was autistic at 40.
I kept thinking to myself "But everyone does that/feels like that. I do!".
After, like, the fifth time the lightbulb flicked on.
My life in one meme.
And this.
This!
My 5 year old is now in the process of being diagnosed with both ASD and ADHD.
I am NOT interested in any "treatment" that suppresses his natural behaviours in order to make him fit in. He is weird, he is wonderful, he is free to be himself.
I have spent the last 2 years doing this.
"Oh, THAT'S why I did that thing."
Masking is one of the reasons why 4 x as many boys are diagnosed as girls.
Boys literally do not give a shit. They do what they want.
Girls are desperate to fit in. So they watch and they learn and they copy. They suppress and they apologise. They're quiet and never any bother at school but breakdown when they get home.
The interesting thing is - that for those of us who aren't diagnosed until later - it can become completely subconscious. It's not a thought out and considered process, it just sort of happens. You mimic those around you until you don't even know who you are any more, but you just kind of assume that everyone else around you is pretending too.
Picking apart my subconscious mask and discovering who I am underneath has been the most freeing thing about my diagnosis.
I love Autistic Me.
Another thing I now have a name for. I'm not lazy or unmotivated. I have executive functioning issues.
This actually works BTW. I don't this is ND specific at all but I'm tossing it in here because it helps.
It's like using my customer service voice in every conversation ever.
Exhausting.
Oh, so true!
My uni housemates labelled me as "the eccentric one" within a week.
But I didn't get labelled as ASD until I was 30.
LISTEN TO US
So much happier now.
Full house!
Very important.
We're not all the same.
We're not "more autistic" or "less autistic".
We don't all for the stereotype.
We're just us.
And we're really fucking awesome.
5knotcans
Well where are your paintings, then?
Choboman
Sorry that this has been so difficult for you over the years and glad that you're finding your path now.
Johnsky
You don't look Autistic.
INeedToChangeMyUsername
Thanks
Mandar666
Well damn, turns out I might be autistic. When I told my wife, she just said she knew for years. Just thought I was weird. Thanks @op!
INeedToChangeMyUsername
Welcome to the club. Enjoy your journey..
ialsochoosethisguysusername
When you keep relating to memes about autism and realize... OOOOHHHH
ialsochoosethisguysusername
@op I also just looked up stiming and found this video and there are SO MANY THINGS I DO https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=8bhT2R9HiLs
INeedToChangeMyUsername
I'm a fidgeter. Anything that's near me gets picked up and fiddled with. My son rocks and kicks.
BrickShakes
I can relate, people often say they can't tell... but i literally spent years to make sure you can't tell.
INeedToChangeMyUsername
Yes! I have perfected hiding in plain sight.
LinkWieldsTheTriforceOfCourage
Yeah, no thanks. I have absolute zero interest in normalizing my ADHD, my bi-polar, my clinical depression, or my crippling social anxiety.
LinkWieldsTheTriforceOfCourage
I'm 36 (diagnosed with ADHD at 7, bi-polar at 9) and I cant even provide a living for myself because my brain is an absolute trainwreck.
LinkWieldsTheTriforceOfCourage
So I've decided to write off this life and try again next time.
LinkWieldsTheTriforceOfCourage
Pills screwed me up multiple times during childhood and my teens, even went full catatonic once from a bad reaction.
LinkWieldsTheTriforceOfCourage
Talking to shrinks never helped because I always felt so damned awkward and cant articulate my own problems well in-person.
Lemmingofdarkestnight
So much all of this. Didn't really grasp how much I was autistic until I was an adult. Early support would have made life much easier.
INeedToChangeMyUsername
I don't necessarily find life easier now, but it makes so much more SENSE.
Lemmingofdarkestnight
True, but it also makes me feel less bad that it took me 30 years to learn to handle social situations. Feel less broken.
INeedToChangeMyUsername
Definitely less broken. I have a reason for all the difficulties, and that is half the battle.
Lemmingofdarkestnight
And now that I have an autistic son, I'm better prepared to help him than I parents were to help me.
iExplainTheJoke
Putting your phone on black and white can help stop you from getting distracted by it
INeedToChangeMyUsername
Oh really? I hadn't heard that!
iExplainTheJoke
It works for me less pretty colors I turn it on and phone gets boring there's also time management apps, like you could put your phone on
iExplainTheJoke
Kiddo mode
chokingonmyownspit
When I was a kid, there was a backlash against ADHD diagnoses. But I had all the symptoms. My parents and teachers were convinced that ->
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just one more beating would surely set me straight. Went on for years. As an adult, I was finally officially diagnosed. Treatment was ->
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a massive improvement in my quality of life. I still have ill feelings about it not being caught much earlier.
INeedToChangeMyUsername
My brothers school wanted to refer him for diagnosis at one point. My parents didn't want him to be "labelled".
chokingonmyownspit
Interestingly enough, I score extremely high on most ASD tests. My psych Dr. didn't want me to be "labelled" either. But I find that ->
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treatments for Autism and Asperger's benefit me, so I use them. One thing I recommend is the book "A Field Guide to Earthlings."
CouldBeACrackhead
Hmmm....I mean, a lot of these resonate with me. Especially how much easier it is to communicate via text on the internet. I have gotten so>
CouldBeACrackhead
much better at communicating via telephone or face to face in the past few years because of my job. Out of curiosity, what age were you >
CouldBeACrackhead
diagnosed and what finally pushed you to seek medical help?
INeedToChangeMyUsername
30. And I actually did it for my son. I wanted him to be supported through school and a genetic history is one of the things they ask about.