I love this poor bastard so much (the plant)

So here is the tree a couple months ago, this was when it was in its prime i guess

With such stunning flowers (i can't believe my shitty iphone 4 took this photo)

It looked beautiful and smelt great to

And my god with the rain droplets on it, it looked so healthy and vivid and smelt great to!

(Still amazed my iphone took these photos and just in case no filters where used this is a stock photo)

But unfortunately the poor bastard much to my disappointment was ripped out in the name of progress :/ it wasn't until serveral months after that, that whilst i was mowing the lawn i happened to notice out of the corner of my eye this

I was so amazed that this poor bastard which rarely ever flowered was managing to flower now that it had been ripped out and tossed in the garden pile

Now i love this tree to fucking pieces so i immediately asked dad for some pots to try and save this poor thing. I hope that i have not inadvertantly killed it in my efforts to save it.

Under this pile of shit flowers bloomed

After loosing my SO a couple months ago i have not felt this feeling for what feels an eternity. For the first time in half a year i felt unconditional love again.

I still want to the ends of the earth just to be able to lie down with someone and hug them, to be intimant with them :/

Hugs are i think the thing that i need the most in my life, not hugs from family but hugs from someone who wants to be with you, who makes you feel worth their time.

I miss the hugs the most and it has been shit dealing with that, i tried to bottle up my emotions. In short i pickled in my own emotions (and still am) became nasty to my family so much so that i no longer "love" them as family. They have become just people to me with no real significance.

Anyways heh sorry for that episode, this is my late grandfathers place. My father ended up with this slice of heaven. Unfortunately he will be selling it soon which will be depressing for us both, but it is in this little patch in moray feild that i have seen some of the most stunningly beautiful things in my life

I sat on the patio looking out to the yard and the old gum trees, i watched the clouds float past and i listened to the birds chirp the crickets hippity hoppity about

But the hands down most beautiful thing i have even witnessed was when it rained in this place. Sitting there on the patio watching the dust from the ground wash off the plants to smell the smells of a truely magnificent place

The colours seemingly awoken by the rain came screaming out to life like 5 year old kids at 7 am on christmas day looking for their presents.

I struggle to attach my self to things enough to warrant tears but twice now have i felt tears coming on (but never comming out unfortunately) because of this place, first the rain and now the plant

This place is also the first place where i have ever seen such amazing flowers, i went to a botanical gardens once a long time ago abd i have seen flower shows before but nothing conpared to this, the natural beauty of the plants spreading where ever they wanted to, flowering sporadically instead of in military lines some people see as perfection

We trim the hedges mow the lawn and keep the place tidy and good looking and i think it is because of my work in the yard to keep this house looking so nice beside my father that i have come to love the place so greatly.

And seeing all of the petals on the ground from this tree was truely brilliant to, the streaks of pink strewn through out the lush green of the lawn.

This place when grandpa was alive was struggling and it was a representation of him in a way, the gardens has begun to fall and the grass to was dying. Thankfully even with the heat the rains have been kind on this place and truely set my heart on fire. I would love to one day grow old on this block but i know it will almost certainly never happen

Thank you all who got this far. If you happen to know Ryan Burrell who attends a school on the sunshine coast (QLD) of australia, are single, good looking ;D and looking for hugs i beg you please ask me out i am really lonely :/. Otherwise!!! Hahahha i hope every one is in good health and will spend their christmas with someone whom they love. Merry earlly christmas every one, i really really hope it is spectacular for you all.