I need help

Sorry if seems like a shitpost but I cant take it anymore. My girlfriend just gave me the " i dont feel the same about you anymore " speach. This hit me really hard, seeing that i still love her and that i poured everything i could into the relationship. I did everything, i put my family and friends on hold for her, i was there when she was low, i cooked for her almost everyday, i told her how beautiful she was and how much she ment to me daily, i went and supported her for everything she did, i tried getting better for her becuase my depression and anxiety was effecting her, i spent alot of time with her family so they would like me, i forgave her when she cheated on me, i boosted her confidence, i steped out of my comfort zone a lot for her, i suppressed my anxiety for her, i ingored my depression for her, i tried to make her feel special because she was the most important thing to me. I love her i really really do with everything in body i love her, and hearing her say that was just the breaking point. I feel fucking worthless and truly alone. I dont care if i live or die anymore, i wish i would just die in a car accident so it would be a little more easy on family rather than killing myself. I was already unstable before all of this and i dont know what to do. She was my motivation to get better and to live, with out her i dont know what to live for. I tried talking with my friends but they are just like " ok bro calm down it's just a chick " and my when i told my family that i might be contemplating suicide they lost their shit and got angry at me saying not to ever say that again. I tried to get an appiontment with a psychiatrist but they said they have a spot open in two months even though i need it right now. I cant talk to my councilors because they will just think I'll kill myslef in the bathroom or something and dont generally care about me. Im trying here i really am trying but I'm running out of motivation to do anything anymore because whats the point, if i die no one would really care. Just like those two kids who committed suicide this year at my school, they remembered them for a week and forgot about them.

Sorry if it all didnt make sense im just kind of rambling.I just need some good words right now, i dont care if you upvote or downvote i just need someone to say its going to be ok.

Thank you